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COZUMEL • c.1996 • A TITLE THAT STUCK

I'M
BETTER
NOW.

It sounds reassuring. That wasn't really the idea.

Paul Cruse with guitar in Cozumel around 1996, the photograph used for I'm Better Now artwork
Cozumel, around 1996 — the photograph later used for I'm Better Now.
The glass-fronted building in Cozumel where the I'm Better Now photograph was made
The wider view — glass frontage, street, white Beetle, red Jeep and the Caribbean beyond.
COZUMEL • c.1996

First, the location.

The wider photograph shows the setting: a glass-fronted building facing the road and sea, with palm trees reflected across its façade.

Move closer and the glass stops being merely a building. It becomes the frame for another photograph.

01
THE ACTUAL PHOTOGRAPH

Paul. Guitar. Sea. Palm trees. Red Jeep.

The closer photograph from that Cozumel sequence is the one that mattered.

Paul stands outside with the guitar, seen through the divisions of the glass frontage. Behind him are the sea, a palm tree and the red Jeep. The architecture divides the image almost like a ready-made sleeve design.

This was the photograph later used as artwork for a CD Paul made for a friend.

The CD needed a title.

THE TITLE WAS

I'M BETTER NOW

It was sarcastic.

02
NOT QUITE A STATEMENT OF WELLBEING

The joke is in how confidently it says it.

I'm Better Now has the shape of a conclusion: problem solved, crisis passed, everything fine.

But the title was deliberately sarcastic. That tension is what gave it life — and perhaps why the phrase refused to disappear afterwards.

It wasn't merely a label attached to one homemade CD. It became one of those phrases that has cropped up here and there through Paul's musical history.

The actual Cozumel photograph used for I'm Better Now
AN IMAGE GETS A SECOND LIFE

Holiday photograph.
CD artwork.
Archive artefact.

The photograph wasn't taken with a CD sleeve in mind. But its glass divisions, guitar, sea and strong blocks of colour already give it the structure of artwork. Its later use gave it a new identity.

Years later again, recovering the photograph reconnects the image with the title and the story behind it.

That is one of the pleasures of an archive: objects acquire histories of their own.

A RECURRING PHRASE

Some titles finish a project.
Others keep following you around.

I'm Better Now belongs to the second category. The phrase has resurfaced at different points in Paul's musical history, carrying a little of the original joke with it each time.

As more of that history is recovered, those later appearances can be connected back here rather than treated as unrelated fragments.

“I'M BETTER NOW.”

Well... that was the title, anyway.
THE ARCHIVE IS GROWING

What turns up next?

Photographs, recordings, guitars, performances and the stories that connect them. Some already have a destination. Others can wait until their story catches up with them.